I’m writing today to share that I’ve officially opened two new spaces where this work can continue, wherever you are. First, my YouTube channel is now live, offering meditations, embodiment practices, ritual classes, and sacred sound. Second, I’ve joined Insight Timer, where you’ll find guided meditations and blessings created to support your nervous system, your longing, and your return to rhythm.

Lately, I’ve noticed something new in my body… I’ve been nervous.

After years of deep healing, rebuilding my nervous system, and staying in what felt safe and sacred—I’m now stepping into things that scare me. Not because they’re wrong, but because they’re real.

I’m creating things that require other people’s presence. I’m building retreats, writing books, offering rituals, starting platforms. And for the first time in a long time… I need others to show up. That’s vulnerable.

I’m used to doing the inner work quietly. Now I’m learning how to do it publicly. Not from performance, but from truth.

This new edge feels tender and alive. And if you’re also standing at an edge of becoming—I see you. Let’s breathe through the fear together.

Because maybe nervousness is just the nervous system’s way of saying: “We’re not shrinking anymore.”

Discover what sets Benny Saint James' retreats apart—through intentional design, deep healing, personal transformation, and true value that goes far beyond a vacation. More than a getaway, this is a sacred return.

This wasn’t a vacation. This wasn’t even just a retreat. It was a ceremony stretched over seven weeks—three weeks of preparation, one potent week on sacred land, and three weeks of integration. I created this rhythm as a gift for my future participants, but before I ever shared it with anyone else, I had to walk it first.

There’s a moment in every healer’s path when the work you’ve been quietly cultivating behind the scenes asks to take center stage. When the way you’ve been showing up no longer matches the depth of what you carry. When trust becomes more than a mantra—it becomes a leap.

For me, The Prime was that leap.

Wholeness is not something we earn, it is something we remember. And that remembering became the sacred compass guiding everything I do.